What I really meant to say is I'm sorry for the way that I am <3

brokensmile_26 @ 2005-07-16T23:05:00

2005-07-17T03:05:36Z

This is by far the worst summer of my life.

brokensmile_26 @ 2005-06-23T11:33:00

2005-06-24T02:57:42Z

So it is my Birthday tomorrow and it came up unbelievably fast and doesnt even feel like it
I've been working crazy ammounts and nichole is grounded for the entire summer for some stupid party that should have never happend :-( sadd yeah i know.. Im going to miss going out to eat everyday and tanning by the pool being lazzy

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2005-04-29T01:23:52Z

I dunno if I am going to bother with this thing anymore.. does anyone even bother reading it, cause if not it's goneeeee

brokensmile_26 @ 2004-07-31T21:52:00

2004-08-01T01:53:12Z

*Comment to Be added* *Comment at least once in awhile* *Don't talk all ghetto, its annoying*

Mall and such

2004-07-17T03:11:18Z

Im going to update this thing like everyday now cause its my new one and funner. SO me and nichole woke up around 11:45 actually nichole woke up at 10 lol but anyways we did nothing all day really, i made her a cd and we watched tv and then we got ready for the mall. Then went there and I got melanie's present, my digital camer pictures developed, i got a harry potter and a johnny depp/orlando bloom poster and a picture frame. Around 8:45 we bumped into john haha that kid is so funny so we were at the cookie place and Johns like hehe how much is it for a baby cookie and the lady like bitched him out so hes like oh how much is it for a half cookie hah yeah it was funny. After we walked to target quickly cause he had to get back to work, so we went there and walked him back to work and then nichole needed 2 dollars so we figured he had some and we went to get him but he only had a $5 and he decided to break the 5 and get change from the cash drawer but his boss came over and he got into trouble so we're sorry john haha and tomorrow i think im going to get stuff for my room since its not newly painted and everything and im going to try driving on the highway ohh god im nervous woo road lessons on monday! yay im excited and me and nichole r trying to stop eating so much and are going to join the gym so im not fat anymore and we can go together cause we will have our licenses soon and my sister and mom can take us yeahhhh <3 and i finally found out the name of the song i lovee go me :-) and i forgot to mention the other day was mikes 17th bday so happy late birthday asshole and i guess tomorrow is johns so happy birthday to him too

SUMMMMMMMER <3

2004-07-15T20:51:38Z

This summer is honestly amazing, ive been doing so many random things lol. So on Monday it was sarah buckleys surprise party it was a lot of fun. I was there, nicole clement, shaina, lauren szablack, taylor, kasie, meghan and 3 of her soccer friends. We ate and played spongebob volleyball haha and just hung out, then that night me and lauren szablack went over to taylors. And we went swimming and dressed up as hookers and took pics and prank called people and went on a walk. Tuesday hm oh yes i woke up late, took a shower then mel came topick me up and we picked shaina and annie up too. Then nicole clement came and we set up a tent in mels garage and then we ate at the rainforest cafe oh man the service there was so horrible but it was funny shitt the waitress had like 2 lazy eyes and wouldnt look at us and ddnt give us straws, knives or forks lol then we went back to mels and NICHOLE came and annie left cause she felt sick, we watched 28 days later and roasted marshmellows outside in the rain haha and then nichole had to go home cause she had to babysit.. so it was just me shaina nicole and melanie. We started watching badder santa and halfway through we heard something in the garage like attacking us so we looked out and we saw like this 20 pound albino thingy and we had no idea what it was and i had to peee soo bad but we waited in the tent for like an hour so it wouldnt eat us.. we stepped outa the tent and then we looked out the garage and noticed there was a skunk eating all the melted marshmellow from the driveway and was in the bag so this was around 2:30 so we booked it into mels moms car and sat there for 3 minutes then her parents woke up and they couldnt find the skunk anywhere so they prob thought we were lying which we werent i tried gettting a pic of it but it didnt work lol, we ended up sleeping downstairs and we played cards all night and called matt niermyer at like 5 am and shaina called erins cell and chewys cell haha and we were like um how do u play asshole but no one knew how to. uh by 5:30 mel fell asleep so me shaina and nicole talked for an hour and a half about things till like 7:15 and yeah we didnt sleep once haha but it was so worth it and we ate breakfast and then i went home and fell asleep at 10:30 and woke up at 3:30 then i cleaned then nichole came over wooo my sister was telling me a few days ago how my dad has porn and i didnt believe it so me and her looked in my dads closet and sure enough there it is omg 4 fucking video tapes lol i was like omg ewww, so he came home and we decided we wanted to paint my room but nope we had to get the wall paper off first which took forever and tonight we are going to paint.. then we found something out about my sister which totally suckss for her oh well her fault lol and shes going to be getting cravings so we figured she ate my dads whole large pizza hahaha "Your dad said we could help ourselves, but it looks like someone else already did" omg that was the funniest thing in the world, uh around 12 we made rice pilaf and we watched boy meets world then super troopers- the funniest movie alive.. we had to wake up at 9:30 tho cause i had a doctors appt. which went alrighttt coulda been worst then we went to mccdonalds and got the best salad ever (bacon ranch) lol came back to my house then mel picked us up to go get her permit HAPPY BIRTHDAY! which she did eventually get, later we went to sullivans where i being the slob spilled all over my shirt and pants so mel needed to use the potty so she came in and so did her mom and her mom came upstairs and i didnt notice and i go "MY BOOBIES ARE LEAKING" oh man lol and now we r doing nothing and going to paint in awhile yaaaayy oh and i also made nichole a livejournal her website thingy is.. www.livejournal.com/users/mypaper_heart2 so go to it u assholes :-)

WOOOO

2004-07-11T20:30:52Z

Yesterday oh my good god, went to the party for my dads work. And i casually met Alex last summer so i wasnt expecting him to look totally different oh but he was So he took me jet skiing and tubing and was funny and cute and we hung out then he had to go to work.. so i got home then me and kim decided to go see the notebook at 10:10 and i got home around 1 and before that i was telling zach how i thought alex was cute and stuff and to not tell alex that so of course he does.. when i got home ihad a message from alex saying "Hey isnt 1:30 kinda late to be out.. dont ya think this is alex by the way you know the geourgous one from the lake who tipped the jet ski" haha i almost died so zach was like hey u wanna hang out tomorrow and im like sure just call me tomorrow so he did and we decided to hang out with alex but no one was home so alex and zach came to pick me up and we chilled at zachs for a bit then went to alexs back onto the jet ski haha and with 3 people thats rough we must have tipped at least 10 times but it was fun and worth it.. i hit my heel pretty hard once falling off tho lol and my shins are all bruised but oh well

tomorrow party for sarah for her 16th then tuesday party for melanie at canobie :-) bye bye

And i love the good times that you wreck

2004-07-10T01:26:02Z

So im still trying to figure this gay livejournal out, i want it to be totally different from the other kindaish but it isnt working.. i cant figure out how to get the text on the right side instead of the left or even the image to the right side so you can see it but nope it isnt workingand the colors are all messed up but oh well. So 6 flags was so awesome we left around 8:30 and got home by 8:30 tonight haha we went on superman at least 4 times and the first time i thought my dad was going to beat the guy up who worked there because he said he was too tall which he wasnt so they had to get the manager then the higher manager and everything lol then he wore my sandlas so he could go on and be short enough cause his shoes were too tall lol then the other 3 times he just snuck on and no one noticed and yeah we went to the water park oh yes and mel was with us, kim and bre ended up not going which was cool.. tomorrow i have some thing for my dads work at his friends house and i met his son last year ohh yeah :-) and its on the lake(long pond) too so we can go swimming and tubing
NICHOLE COMES HOME ON SUNDAY SO SHE NEEDS TO HELP ME PAINT MY ROOM, which i have been cleaning out
*and the plans for the summer- 2nd week in august, york beach with mel
3rd week in august the cape with family
the red sox july 22 and possibly another spinners game, i went to one the other dayy it was fun they won.
patriots training camp down in foxboro possibly
field hockey- end of august*
I honeslty dont know what to do about the school issue, I want to go to groton-dunstable just to get away for the year and thats best for me but mel doesnt want me going cause i told her i would do field hockey with her and micque doesnt want me leaving either and meg thinks its a good idea so im with herr on the leaving issue but then again i dont want it to seem like i am running away from some problems which i am doing in a way but i also just want to get out of THS forawhile for a nice change, if i do decide to stay i need to do my summer reading lol
i'll have to ask more people

You know, it's weird how you still love the person, you just stop needing them the way you used to

And the sad part is, that no matter what goes on this year, when you come running back to me again, you know I'll be here

It's like your heart has been ripped out and stomped on. You.. you can't breathe, you don't want to eat, you can't function. It's the most intense pain that you'll ever feel, and there's no way to relieve it. It's unyielding, merciless torture, and you know its yours for life

Im going drivingg bye and if anyone wants to help me this lj then pleasee help

< I dont want to wait for our lives to be over >

2004-07-09T04:24:49Z

I have decided like meghan to make a whole new livejournal so no one i dont want reading this, reads it. And I clearly like that idea.. so anyways the summer has been awesome and im switching schools next year so i dont have to put up with people's shit anymore, today i spent over 6 hours with kim and my dad to find a tatoo for her and finally after hours she found a place she liked and got on. She wanted me there with her so i stayed there for 2 hours while she got it.. then we all went out to eat in nashua, then went to cvs and now mel is here and we are going to six flags tomorrow :-) agh i miss meghan and im sorry for all the shit dude i lovee you you're the best, and i cant wait for nichole to come home i miss her too and yeah i also quit diving because its too much pressue and i just cant deal with it anymore so yup I guess thats it and oh yes i saw the notebook last night with kait and it was soo good i recomend seeing it, i'll go again.